Saturday, February 28, 2009

27 Feb/28 Feb/1st March 09

ok so i have been sitting here starring at this post thinking of what things 2 actually write here...btw its actually 2.20am now...(been feeling 'emo' this past few weeks/months...sorta going public with it...damn)

My hopes...my dreams...my life...
Time spent with u will always b in my heart.
I want u out of my life now,
...but no matter how hard i try...u still keep coming back into it...
U really have shattered it...
Made a broken promises...lies...
...I can't stand it anymore...I let it out...expressed myself...u mean nothing 2 me now...
I'm moving on...slowly healing from this...
...i hope i would be able 2 pull through all this.

gtg zzzz...tennis carnival...at 7am nid 2 wake up...zzz

Woke up at 7am...asked nut 2 fetch...walk'd 2 vistana 2 wait...bout 7.30am she came...arrived bout 7.45am...chatted with denzel's mum while putting on sunblock...then warmed up with him...my match supposed 2 start at 9.15am cuz i'm playing 1st round...so dint go makan with nut and e couple...waited...chatted...in d end 10am only playing...swtt...ok so i played ee lin in court 2...basic win la...8 love...lolz...then suppoced 2 partner siew yee 4 doubles mana tau she nt feeling well or what so asked farah 2 partner me...so ok la...went 2 support eric...elaine sat on e and nut...wtf...smart la...haha...went freaking high...eric was playing at court 17...bout 12.15pm they called me played farah at court 18...lolz...lucky la u girls no nid move 2 support me lol...i kena owned man...freaking hell...wtf/wth was i doing!?!!??!?!?!...lost love...omg...doubles at 3.30pm...me and farah played izzati and sis...court 18...damn fun la playing wih them...haha...so siok...at 1 game i was serving...i kinda lobbed and they smashed almost kena-ing my head 1st...then shoulder then hand...wtf...lolz...but it was a fun doubles with them...my volleys so keng...bt nt keng enuf 2 win...so in d end d final score was 8-4...hey not bd...at lease got a 4...heehe...played elaine and nut court 1 next...was 3 all my serve 30-40 when it rained...then d matches 4 d day canceled...so after d 1st day me elaine and nut decided 2 go hang out at d esplanade party but rain...went 2 qb instead...

6.30pm darvind fetched me back...omg he had 4 backstage passes 2 d event...somehow his friend working 4 maxis then gave him 4...mana tau he gave is other friends liao...went home rushed like hell...mum fetehed me 2 qb...7.30pm meet qb...-damn high girls night out-

Makan tako...cheese ham and prawn...walked 2 d cine bt no shows nice so went 2 makan at pizza hut 8.30pm...ordered personal island supreme stuffed crust chezzzeeee, pitcher of coke, 2 soups, chicken wings...paid rm17 bucks...we hanged ther and bonded till 9.30pm...lolz...then went shopping...bought a lollipop frm gurdian...spray...swt...hampir hampir kena molested...so i ran...then i 'vainned' while d girls were shopping...bought pins...some promo...buy 2 free 1...so they bought i got free...haha...total went 2 like 4 shops...bout 10 something went 2 baskin but close d so went 2 buy ice cream frm hokaido...i got A4 some ice cream sundae while elaine gt herself a green tea cone...waited 4 elaine's dad 2 fetch us back...reached home at 11 something. End 2 a wonderful night with them...cu 2mro...

Ok so i thought i was nt gonna play today so i reached bout 9am...lucky i thought of wearing ma tennis gear...i saw elaine playing my parnter farah on court 9 and nut playing izzati court 14 i think...bout 10 something me and farah(my doubles parnter) continued our match with elaine and nut on court 1...3 all...i was warming up with my parnter...was working on my volleys...farah commented on it...it was good why dint i play like tht yday doubles...hehe...in my heart i was like...i have to win this!!!...no matter what bribes they gave me...so in like 1 and a half hrs we won...awesome volley by me at d 40-30...yes we won...but can see they bey siok with me liao...so i kept my distance frm them and hanged with d other gang...elaine played her finals court 3 half an hour later...like 12 something...cheered for her abit...she kinda bey siok me...but nvm la at lease i cheered...went high with selina, kevin, karin, etc...lolzzz...lucky draw kt gt d racket...ish...my drink kena spilled...court 13 u23 guys finals gerald wu beat kt 2.3 haha...walked with nut...suddenly thought i saw dar's car...lol he was at d side...i convinced him bring us go makan mcd...yay he did...lolz...large fishy for d both of us...coke and sprite...then stupid e called nut come back...15mins lo...then doubles u23 gals...ish nt fair d sisters gave us a thougher fight...they won 8-5 no... gt 4...prize giving till 4pm...packing up...bye susu...curi my drink somemore la...haiz...lol...cu next week...so karin, me, see sisters and uncle raymond was messing with the boxs...haha...damn funny...reached home bout 6pm end.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Sorrows Underneath

I think of all my problems,
I think of all my pain,
I think of all my sorrows,
Until I go insane.

I think of all the smiles I've worn,
Which hide sorrows underneath.
No one seems to notice,
That I go through so much grief.

My tears seem to keep flowing,
Inside my tired eyes.
Each time I want to tell you,
My words come out as lies.

These days I'm feeling distant,
Far away and week.
My sadness pulls me further,
From the happiness I seek.

I've just begin to realized,
That my hopes and dreams are gone,
I'm walking down a dead-end road
Humming a tuneless song.

I'm standing on a rooftop,
Although I'm scared of heights,
I'm watching the cars beneath me move,
And somehow this doesn't feel right.

Now I think of what I'm doing,
I know I should find a way,
To beat through my depression,
Will I be able to someday?

Someone might be there,
To help me make it through,
Maybe they will listen,
And tell me what to do.

I'm seeing through the darkness,
And I'm starting to trust a few,
I think I'll try to make it,
So I can be there for them too.

*My Dolores debajo~*

-Lim Yimei

Friday, February 6, 2009

From ME To Debby

Thanks girl 4 listening 2 me...
...yea screw her stupid b****h!!!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Currently feeling

Ok here's a lil something i wrote during maths class...was kinda emo-ing there and then...damn...I'm turning emo...

11pm:

I wish u could feel my hurt...my pain...
...make me feel better...and take my problems away...
Heal my wounds...wipe my tears...help me smile again.

*Time heals all wounds...but i don't think any1 or anytime i will heal*

-Lim Yimei

Sunday, February 1, 2009

I'll Be Here

I cannot ease your aching heart,
Nor take your pain away,
But let me stay and take your hand,
And walk with you today.

I'll listen when you need to talk,
I'll wipe away your tears,
I'll share your worries when they come,
I'll help you face your fears.

I'm here and I will stand by you,
On each hill you have to climb;
So take my hand, let's face the world...
And live just one day at a time.

You're not alone, for I'm still here,
I'll go that extra mile;
And when your grief is easier,
I'll help you learn to smile.

-Lim Yimei

Emo post 1

Hey my fans haha...ok so its been a long time since i last blogged...haha...not really its only like been a week LOL...zon ping pong coming up soon...goshhh so fast...

10am :
I'm lying down on the bed thinking bout my life...
The burden that crashed on my life is a nightmare has already exploded...and i'm living it now
...my problems after problems...and fights after fights...
God i'm begging...
...Why ru doing this to me?...Don't u love me?
If this is cause u love me then stop...i've had enough...end my life...i rather go and live my life in hell than 2 go through another day with this pain!
No1 really understands me...they try 2...yea...but i jz can't bring myself forward 2 tell them the truth...the real truth...
Hiding behind a smile is what i do...but inside me i'm hurting day in and out...everyday...since that day...that day...

I'm in this blog...expressing my feelings...thinking...what am i doing?...letting the whole wide world read this post...letting friends...family...and strangers read this...i must be crazy...yeah i think i am...so what?!?!?!

I would like 2 thank 4 best friends of mine who has been there for me throughout my ups and downs...my friendships...family problems...my life...

1. To : Eleasha,
for always being a call away when i'm down or have nothing better 2 say...haha...all the calls and messages really really helped me through all diz while...words cannot express how much i truly cherish your friendship...i'm glad u've been with me tru thick and thin.

2. To : Nabilah,
gal u really helped me through my problems with him...i'm really happy i met u...crazy fun...late nights...all but distant memories now...yeah ur a call away too...hope ur alright with ur problem...and CHILL!!!...btw u see la u...influence me 2 call u already...haha...and your welcome...i've helped 2 tru urs.

3. To : Sher Manie,
Thanks sis 4 everything...all d EARLY nights and msn-ing with u...how could any1 like u turned into a good friend of mine in such short time amazes me...u can inflict all sorts of emotions on me...haha...crazy...happy...mad...annoyed...etc...i really appreciate u...my owl + idiotic hero.

4. To : Kaveta,
Nut...so far only u can make me tell u anything without judging me or saying anything 2 make me regret telling u my stuffs...i think out of all my friends only u i've been able 2 tell without me breaking or tearing...our friendship has been through ups & downs...luckily our bond is strong enough 2 withstand all those...d ppl who tore us apart at times...SCREW U...were best of friends and no1 could break our friendship line...my partner in tennis...my babi & nut...haha...cu during tennis girl...i know u wanna talk 2 me badly haha...sorry 4 d past few weeks of ditching u in tennis...been damn busy with TABLE tennis...lol...4give me...btw jealous of u 'my bata' *our inside joke* (Laughs)

+ 5. To : (unknown),
U've really cheered me up when i'm down...talking with u really made my day brighter...i can tell u that...i miss how they way things were b4...i hope u do too...i know u won't be reading my blog but i jz want u2 know.

P.S: To U,
I really want 2 tell u this...'it'...who knows in time...if tht day i can't tahan...i may call u...but i'm not sure i'm ready 2...even i could not bring myself 2 tell her bout it...what about u?

btw 2 all of those who think u should be mention sorry i couldn't write anymore...but u should know who uR...thanks lots.

*u know...sometimes i find myself wondering if could jz tell u everything...but would u make my life better...or worse...*

I know kinda emo...*Listening 2 : Save You by Simple Plan*

-Lim Yimei